So, I have no life. And the last post seems to have reached it's pinnacle of comments, so I deemed it time for a new topic of discussion. This will be light hearted and smiley, but what makes each of you happy? What makes you tick? (insert deep drawl in this comment for those movie nighters amongst you) Little things or big things, we can get to know a lil more about each other.

a post entitled... how dumb am i. (a statement, not a question so don't try just looking at the title and telling me how dumb I really am because that

would be mean). That's the end of the title that wouldn't fit in the title section... and I'm mostly joking.

So I'm having this ‘thought/small revelation’ right now. It kinda reminds me of a previous post by Marcella about sackcloth and ashes... so I realized today how dumb I am. I do horrible things continually. Take tonight for instance. I just had a really great Bible study with some younger girls from my church and then practically right afterward (we hadn't even left the room) my cousin, who was also there, and I started arguing about something pointless that wasn't even worth the effort and in fact was just a big misunderstanding (which we worked out after we chilled, by the way). At least that one had a redeeming quality. I've done worse things recently that haven't had redeeming qualities so much... like call someone OCD (rudely) when I could have figured on them being embarrassed and upset because of who we were around. Or... get upset and defensive when a friend stomps on my art piece that I had even said wasn't that great. : ) There are more where this came from, and I wish I had time to list them all because I think I need to dwell on them a little more than I often do. But for now... on to the point.

I'm not saying any of this stuff so people can come back with well-intended comments that tell me that it's OK that I mess up, or that I'm not really a horrible person. I'm also not just pointing out that I mess up and feel bad and beat myself up mentally. I'm posting this because I was amazed again tonight how God really doesn't need me. He's perfect without my help (surprising since I generally think few beings are. Gah!). In fact, sometimes I think he works better 'on the fly' with my mistakes because when I mess up it’s the only time he seems to get through with the message... 'Laura, you're not self-sufficient or even just sufficient most of the time!' All I do is mess it up. He's the one doing things correctly. Nice.

I think all I need now is to have this kind of experience at least once a week so maybe I'll finally get what Paul was saying... I like it when stuff really sinks in like this and you get it even if it's just for a second. Say it with me now... 'It's not about myself.' Aaaaahhh. Didn’t that feel nice? I'd also like to say ignore Humanism… and… this is our 51st post. Lovely job, Gang.

Warning: What you are about to read is neither orignial, thought provoking, nor deep


I was just wondering what you guys were thinking and or think about social clubs. Are you going to pledge? If so, why? If not, why? If so, which club? If you're already in a club, do you enjoy it? Is the time/money commitment worth it? If you have passed up the opportunity, do you feel like you've missed out on anything of consequence? Just wanted some opinions. It's so much easier than thinking for myself... :P