My Life as a Teenage Mother

For those of you who don't know, Marcella and I are house-sitting/baby-sitting for the Cukrowski family while Ken and Karen are in Russia. I'm having a blast! The girls are amazing, TiVo is the most wonderful invention ever, and I honestly enjoy being in this house; I feel really at home here.
All my life, I've gone through cycles regarding motherhood and homemaking. On the one hand, as much as I love my mother, I don't want to be her. She's a wonderful woman, but I have absolutely no desire to be Martha Stewart and raise kids. I want to work, to be a doctor, and I always have. But on the other hand, I honestly enjoy cooking, cleaning, and spending time with kids. However, the feminist in me rebels against those impulses because those are the exact things that women are expected to do. So I went through a rather long phase where I claimed that I would not have children or get married, or if I did, that my husband would stay home with the kids and be Mr. Mom and I would be the one to work all day and then come home to a clean house and a good meal. And to be honest, I still like that idea to some extent.
But I've come to realize over the last two weeks that, although I still plan on being a doctor and working, and although I still like the idea of my future husband staying home with the kids (I don't like the idea of a nanny or day-care), I think that maybe someday I'll be a mom and keep a nice home. I mean, I'll never be your stereotypical 50s housewife, and I don't want to, but I do think that maybe I can find some balance that will keep the feminist in me happy while the part of me that really enjoys being "mommy" can do that too.
So I don't know that there's really a question in this, or even a real point, but I just wanted to share with you guys. And I still miss you all. And I really will get on AIM to talk eventually.
Oh, btw, if you want a question, I've thought of one. How do you balance work and family? I mean, obviously, it's something you have to come up with as you go along to some extent, and I already have some ideas of my own, but how do you guys plan to handle it? Or do you even know? Okay, that's all. And you really don't have to answer the question. But if you want to, I always appreciate your wisdom.

Summer, Part 2

So I noticed at church on Sunday how empty the auditorium is when all the college students have left. When I was in high school (and 8th grade) I noticed that the auditorium seemed a little empty, of course, but never really. I didn't really care so much, because I had superficial relationships with the college students, at best. Everyone I cared about was around all year (vacations excepted, of course).
This Sunday was sad, though. Not that I didn't like the people who were still here. And I would have sat with Jenny Garrison on Mother's Day no matter what. But it was still sad that everyone was gone. And it's going to be like that all summer.
Which leads me to another point... How do those of you who go away for the summer feel about going home? Obviously, you have a new set of experiences to share with your friends and family, and a lot of catching up to do. But other than that, is it the same?
What exactly is home? How long does it take for home to change?
Okay, that's all. And it wasn't that profound. Mainly I wanted to tell everyone that I miss them desperately. And I know you don't like blogging about daily life, Laura, but make sure you let us know how you're doing, even if you don't tell us every single thing about your day.
I hope everyone has a wonderful week. I'll start thinking about a real post now, and hopefully I'll have something more profound to put up soon.
Oh, and btw, Michelle and Laura, I've started Alias. Stupid suspenseful endings! I'm going to kill you both. : )

Summer . . .

It dawned on me today that I don't know what half of y'all are doing this summer. So would you humor me and tell me what your plans are? I'm going to be working ACU Leadership Camps here, so if you're near Abilene you should come see me on the weekend. :) I hope finals go well for everyone, and that your summer is blessed.